Hell No, I don’t want to attend a meeting or be part of a Recovery community, I’m not that bad, and I am not that bad, that is for someone that has hit a big rock bottom. I don’t want to be one of those people, I want to be fun, fit in, and if I don’t drink, I won’t be that fun person.

How in the world did I get here? The remarkable similarities of Direct Sales Industry and the world of Recovery, thou different in many ways, they both are misunderstood and share some things in common like stigma, resistance, a spectrum (varying levels of beliefs, behaviors, personalities, demographics and practices).

I could quote my Mentor Rita on so many things, in fact, I quote her constantly, she has been a speaker and expert in personal development for decades, she is the greatest speaker I have ever seen, and how blessed am I to have been mentored by her.

Last week, I experienced an interaction with another woman/female entrepreneur & coach. Man, did she “put me in my place” when I spoke up about the book she just published which is a tear down of the industry of Direct Sale/Network Marketing which is an industry I have been a part of for 21 years.

I am currently in a season that I have to believe this, that I have to have faith that all is happening as it should.  I am blessed and life is good, but we all will experience adversity in life or business or both, and I am leaning into my knowing and also remembering how true this is.

My newsfeed these past few days have been flooded with the sad news about Heather Armstrong, Dooce, the OG Mom Blogger.   I began blogging in 2010, I have not followed Dooce but give credit to her and the many others that paved the way for sharing their voices on motherhood, and life, which includes both the beauty and the challenges.

I have this combination of confidence, passion and energy that is at times challenged with fear and doubt, my positive and confident voice always prevails.   I believe in miracles, I believe in happiness, I believe in dreaming, I believe in having a Vision and I believe in developing a plan and doing action to create what you desire.

I have been doing a ton of reflection and also in awe of life stages and phases, each decade presents a new opportunity and challenge. I am in the process of change, and this type of change is requiring me to PAUSE and Be.

Self care is the foundation to better living and the answer when it comes to growth be it personal growth, business growth, professional growth and transformation in every area of your life.

I am creating a Global Happiness Brand, and inspiring millions to merge their work/life into one plan and practice that elevates them to live their best life.   Is it too good to be true, no, because it is not a destination, it is a way of living and tracks to run on—it is a daily practice that helps us move in a positive direction (and learn to be more intentional and present).

There is a local story that is tragic and unimaginable and I can’t help but think we can and need to do better.  

I am feeling the rebel in me being stirred up, and rejecting some of the messaging, pushing and self-improvement hype that I have taught, and subscribed to but also realize is one-sided, and does not leave room for the balance that is desperately needed in all we do.

I enter this year with hope and also not having all the answers, while I have a vision for my life, I also get too overwhelmed by the vision I have of my purpose, and in that, I need to be present, open, and not doing anything, really focusing on the being.

Dear 2022: You were a year full of lessons, experiences, challenges, and incredibly magical memories. It is hard to put into words the growth I experienced, but the words do not matter right now, it is the feeling and knowing that carries me into the New Year.